I have my doubts about reality.
Though we recognize the scientific potential for multiple dimensions, we believe that we are only experiencing three with the addition of time. We are trapped in space, trapped on the perpetual ship of time, trapped in our own minds, and in our own bodies. We know our own bodies are limited in their capabilities of understanding even the things we are presented with. We know there is light that is off the visible spectrum, sound out of hearing range, and an infinite range of electromagnetic pulses and waves that our instruments and tools can only begin to guess at.
If that wasn't enough, our brains are only comfortable with things that can find a place within our preexisting structure of understanding. Language, for some reason, is the substance of this framework. Perhaps sharing our experience somehow cements it as real for us. While language allows us to interpret, comprehend and relate our daily lives, it can also be extremely limiting.
I believe in an ultimate reality. I believe that humans have the capacity to comprehend the fact that an ultimate reality exists. There are a lot of esoteric ideologies concerning the human place on the planet, in the cosmic universe, and as a spiritual or energetic being. The problem comes when you realize every single one of these ideologies is simply an interpretation of experience.
In this diagram we see the different Esoteric Thought Forms, as represented by colored shapes, stretching up through mental reality, touching each other, touching the edge of our understanding as limited by our being humans on Planet Earth.
I believe that Mental Reality has just as much legitimacy as Physical Reality. I believe that True Reality or Ultimate Reality is a conglomerate of all the realities added together throughout time - but I also don't think that any of our Esoteric Ideologies come close to comprehending the biggest picture.
Additionally, I believe our Mental Reality has a huge influence on how we perceive Actual Physical Reality. Thus, the Human Experience of Reality is equal parts of our mental understanding and our physical manifestation.
All of this gets me pretty upset and I think that might be the more important question. Why are humans given the gift of the pressing question but such limited tools for the answers? And why do I feel as though this question has been bestowed upon us as a race from some greater hand?
Recently, the consideration was posed to me, What if the world is mere pointless chaos and the only organization, the only purpose is invented by the human mind to cope? While, to some extent, I believe that to be true, that our realities are constructed from our own understanding of them, the thought still causes me to tremble. And why? What should it matter if I have created my own purpose or bought into some other, better spoken individual's interpretation of the Things That Happen and reality beyond perception? Why do I have such a strong desire for that outermost ring of understanding? It must be born of some human fear of inadequacy, of misunderstanding what is actually happening and acting in good faith on misinformation to the detriment of myself or another.
Above all things, I desire to do as little harm as possible, though it seems that merely by existing, given the evidence, life itself requires such regular destruction that I can hardly stand it. Thus, imagined ideologies, esoteric thought forms to escape into and pretend, with my human brain trapped in this body, trapped in time, on Planet Earth, that somehow, I will do good.
